KALMASIS
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Good day. Much apologies for vanishing off the face of the Earth. I’ve been entirely occupied with various things. I’m not okay but I’ll be okay. I appreciate all the notes that were sent. I will do my best to post drawings and update places like my YouTube channel whenever I can. Hope you all are doing well.
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PLEASE GO ADD JACK's DEVIANTART!
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survey tiem! B)
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1. Do you snore?
I don't know.
2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
Neither. I don't like fighting nor am I a lover. I just stay neutral unless the chemicals in my brain are off balanced due to the stress irl, in which case I still try my best to not cause harm to anyone.
3. What’s your worst fear?
Honestly, it used to be roaches [but nowadays I kill them for my mom and sis' because SOMEBODY has to be the one to get them], but what I actually fear most is death of those I care about [my family and cats and people I've managed to form connections with], so my worst fear is essentially losing my loved ones.
4. As a kid, where you a lego maniac?
I didn't know legos existed until I was an adult. B(
5. What do you think of “reality” tv?
I need to start an obnoxious mini series of my character super evil genius just sitting there, scratching their ass, watching TV and cooking. Paying bills. Doing boring domestic crap.
6. Do you chew on your straws?
USED TO BUT NOT ANYMORE. IT CAUSES DAMAGE TO MY TEETH.
7. Were you a cute baby?
I was actually really ugly, lmao. B(
8. Is the single life for you?
I was fine being single because I couldn't connect with anyone, but that was until I met Jack and I never realized how much I really needed someone in my life I could connect with.
9. What colour is your keyboard?
Black.
10. Do your sing in the shower?
When no one is home.
11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
No. I did go on that carnival sky-dive ride. I liked to just hang lackluster as everyone else screamed.
12. Any secret talents?
I am unsure but I seem to have a skill at calming down bellowing angry people and animals. My dad was screaming hard at my mom causing her to cry. I went over to him to ask what was wrong. He bellowed viciously at me but then started calming down once he saw that I wasn't reacting or changing my cheery expression. I guess it registered to him that I wasn't going to fight back, and it brought him back down to reality.
Then I went to check on my mom to comfort her.
The two made up later on. Thankfully. x_x;
13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
I wouldn't know. I've just been here my whole life. I suppose a day in which I don't have to do anything important and just sleep.
14. Can you swim?
No. I hate water.
16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko”?
I have, mainly because I love science and time travel things.
17. Do you care about the ozone?
I'm honestly... just surviving. If I could, I'd drive a car that wouldn't negatively affect the atmosphere, and I would probably use appliances that didn't require old dinosaur oil. but I can't. There's nothing I or anyone can really do to stop climate change. I mean, there is, but it's out of reach. Eh, I can ramble on about this. Basically, there are too many humans. People need to stop breeding.
19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
No.
20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
No. In February, I'm going to be for the first time in my life to Canada. I'm nervous as heck! B')
21. Are you a single child?
No.
22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
Both are fine.
23. What’s your stand on hunting?
I support it because the hunt is for food related purposes. That is good. You're not wasting what you killed. I don't support shooting for fun however. and farming animals is 85% of the time just wasteful and harmful.
24. Is marriage in your future?
I sense it with Jack.
25. Do you like your handwriting?
No. It's like a caveman crawled out of a ditch and farted all over my paper.
26. What are you allergic to?
I am apparently intolerant to the sun, the humidity, the grass, and... a bunch of other things. Everything just burns or irritates my skin. I hate it. At least the bathwater doesn't harm me. We fixed the bathtub after so long and I NEVER REALIZED HOW NICE IT IS TO BE IN A WARM BATH.
27. When was the last time you said 'I love you?'
Just now.
29. Do you cry at weddings?
I'M A STUPID EMOTIONALLY BITCH. I KNOW I'M GOING TO CRY AT MY SISTER'S WEDDING BECAUSE IT'LL BE LIKE, OH MAN. MY LITTLE SIS' IS ALL GROWN UP NOW. SO HAPPY FOR HER TO FINALLY FIND A MAN THAT DOESN'T TREAT HER LIKE GARBAGE. I RESPECT THIS GOOD MAN. HE IS MY BROTHER NOW.
I'm lame and extreme like that.
I treat her boyfriend as if he were my brother. B)
30. Are you a jealous person?
I'm too old and exhausted to be jealous of anyone anymore. I don't even care nowadays when my parents smother my sis' in love [while they treat me... not so well]. I do kind of still get jealous over rich kids having the world handed to them because it must be nice to be supported by your parents and/or guardian and not be used for much of your life. B(
I get annoyed when people think I'm jealous of them. No. I'm just tired and avoid conflicts. Even if no conflict would happen and that it's literally all in my head, I was raised in an environment in which conflicts happened even if I was not jealous
and so such a pattern stuck with me. My mentality is just to avoid trouble at all costs. [one of many examples: if someone breaks up, i avoid both parties because then they demand for me to choose a side, and so forth.]
so I suppose the only way I'll connect with anyone is UHHHH I GUESS you'll have to walk up to me [literally OR figuratively] and mention you don't dislike/hate me and that you want my friendship and I'll instantly warm up to you no matter who you are. B)
31. Are blondes dumb?
NO. THAT IS FUCKING STUPID. The color of your hair doesn't determine your intellect. Honestly, the people that stated such a notion are just jealous they don't have blonde hair. I'm sad I don't have blonde hair. B(
would make it easy to color it various colors. B)
33. What time is it?
poopoo
4. Do you have a nickname?
Yes.
38. Is Santa Claus real?
Technically and historically one did exist in the past.
39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
I wouldn't know.
40. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really. I clean dishes in the dark... which UH... creeps out my parents, and so I activate the lights while cleaning to not freak them out. I just go by memory of the sink's location and the plate's formations.
41. What are you addicted to?
Friendship, love, compliments. B)
42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
I don't know.
44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yes. It was awful.
48. What colour are your eyes?
Really dark. Black, almost. People say my eyes are really big and striking. I like that. B)
50. Do you like your life?
I read the news a lot and observe how humans are treated and living in other parts of the world and so I can state that my life is not the best BUT certainly not the worst BUT I am highly grateful for what I have. I am grateful to have both my parents, and I am grateful that my sis' and I are friends. I am grateful for the peacefulness established. Even if my parents are still highly chaotic and irrational, the way I react to their chaoticness shows I've become immune to insanity from most others.
tl;dr
I just try my best to cherish things.
52. Are you psychic
In ways that I hate and do not benefit me in any way.
54. Do you play any instruments?
I slam my head onto my piano to make background music for my YouTube videos. Does that count?
58. Do you snort when you laugh?
Yes. I am embarrassed by it.
59. Do you believe in magic?
SCIENCE.
60. Are dogs a man’s best friend?
Most humans around this globe don't deserve dogs.
61. You believe in divorce?
If it is s toxic relationship, then yes. I fully support the divorce. Otherwise... I suppose I admire my parents for being able to tolerate each other for this long despite all the fights, hardships, and other things. They've told me of their childhoods. I feel great pity for them and try my best to bring smiles to their faces whenever possible.
62. Can you do the moonwalk?
I don't know.
63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
A lot. I'm a stupid bitch.
64. Is it cold outside today?
It's actually little cold! B) Yay! Tomorrow I'm going to step out for a bit! ^^
65. What was the last thing you ate?
This.
66. Do you wear nail polish?
I should start wearing black nail polish again! >BD
67. Have you ever been kissed?.
By people I don't like. B(
70. Favourite song at the moment?
STILL THIS! www.youtube.com/watch?v=kw1pXS… B)
75. Do you know how to tag three peoples?
No. B(
I tag Jack. >BD [HE DOESN'T HAVE AN ACCOUNT HERE, BUT I'M STILL TAGGING HIM ANYWAYS BECAUSE HE READS THESE AND I'M A JERK. >BD ]
I also tag Spir and Gealach. B)
I don't know.
2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
Neither. I don't like fighting nor am I a lover. I just stay neutral unless the chemicals in my brain are off balanced due to the stress irl, in which case I still try my best to not cause harm to anyone.
3. What’s your worst fear?
Honestly, it used to be roaches [but nowadays I kill them for my mom and sis' because SOMEBODY has to be the one to get them], but what I actually fear most is death of those I care about [my family and cats and people I've managed to form connections with], so my worst fear is essentially losing my loved ones.
4. As a kid, where you a lego maniac?
I didn't know legos existed until I was an adult. B(
5. What do you think of “reality” tv?
I need to start an obnoxious mini series of my character super evil genius just sitting there, scratching their ass, watching TV and cooking. Paying bills. Doing boring domestic crap.
6. Do you chew on your straws?
USED TO BUT NOT ANYMORE. IT CAUSES DAMAGE TO MY TEETH.
7. Were you a cute baby?
I was actually really ugly, lmao. B(
8. Is the single life for you?
I was fine being single because I couldn't connect with anyone, but that was until I met Jack and I never realized how much I really needed someone in my life I could connect with.
9. What colour is your keyboard?
Black.
10. Do your sing in the shower?
When no one is home.
11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
No. I did go on that carnival sky-dive ride. I liked to just hang lackluster as everyone else screamed.
12. Any secret talents?
I am unsure but I seem to have a skill at calming down bellowing angry people and animals. My dad was screaming hard at my mom causing her to cry. I went over to him to ask what was wrong. He bellowed viciously at me but then started calming down once he saw that I wasn't reacting or changing my cheery expression. I guess it registered to him that I wasn't going to fight back, and it brought him back down to reality.
Then I went to check on my mom to comfort her.
The two made up later on. Thankfully. x_x;
13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
I wouldn't know. I've just been here my whole life. I suppose a day in which I don't have to do anything important and just sleep.
14. Can you swim?
No. I hate water.
16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko”?
I have, mainly because I love science and time travel things.
17. Do you care about the ozone?
I'm honestly... just surviving. If I could, I'd drive a car that wouldn't negatively affect the atmosphere, and I would probably use appliances that didn't require old dinosaur oil. but I can't. There's nothing I or anyone can really do to stop climate change. I mean, there is, but it's out of reach. Eh, I can ramble on about this. Basically, there are too many humans. People need to stop breeding.
19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
No.
20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
No. In February, I'm going to be for the first time in my life to Canada. I'm nervous as heck! B')
21. Are you a single child?
No.
22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
Both are fine.
23. What’s your stand on hunting?
I support it because the hunt is for food related purposes. That is good. You're not wasting what you killed. I don't support shooting for fun however. and farming animals is 85% of the time just wasteful and harmful.
24. Is marriage in your future?
I sense it with Jack.
25. Do you like your handwriting?
No. It's like a caveman crawled out of a ditch and farted all over my paper.
26. What are you allergic to?
I am apparently intolerant to the sun, the humidity, the grass, and... a bunch of other things. Everything just burns or irritates my skin. I hate it. At least the bathwater doesn't harm me. We fixed the bathtub after so long and I NEVER REALIZED HOW NICE IT IS TO BE IN A WARM BATH.
27. When was the last time you said 'I love you?'
Just now.
29. Do you cry at weddings?
I'M A STUPID EMOTIONALLY BITCH. I KNOW I'M GOING TO CRY AT MY SISTER'S WEDDING BECAUSE IT'LL BE LIKE, OH MAN. MY LITTLE SIS' IS ALL GROWN UP NOW. SO HAPPY FOR HER TO FINALLY FIND A MAN THAT DOESN'T TREAT HER LIKE GARBAGE. I RESPECT THIS GOOD MAN. HE IS MY BROTHER NOW.
I'm lame and extreme like that.
I treat her boyfriend as if he were my brother. B)
30. Are you a jealous person?
I'm too old and exhausted to be jealous of anyone anymore. I don't even care nowadays when my parents smother my sis' in love [while they treat me... not so well]. I do kind of still get jealous over rich kids having the world handed to them because it must be nice to be supported by your parents and/or guardian and not be used for much of your life. B(
I get annoyed when people think I'm jealous of them. No. I'm just tired and avoid conflicts. Even if no conflict would happen and that it's literally all in my head, I was raised in an environment in which conflicts happened even if I was not jealous
and so such a pattern stuck with me. My mentality is just to avoid trouble at all costs. [one of many examples: if someone breaks up, i avoid both parties because then they demand for me to choose a side, and so forth.]
so I suppose the only way I'll connect with anyone is UHHHH I GUESS you'll have to walk up to me [literally OR figuratively] and mention you don't dislike/hate me and that you want my friendship and I'll instantly warm up to you no matter who you are. B)
31. Are blondes dumb?
NO. THAT IS FUCKING STUPID. The color of your hair doesn't determine your intellect. Honestly, the people that stated such a notion are just jealous they don't have blonde hair. I'm sad I don't have blonde hair. B(
would make it easy to color it various colors. B)
33. What time is it?
poopoo
4. Do you have a nickname?
Yes.
38. Is Santa Claus real?
Technically and historically one did exist in the past.
39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
I wouldn't know.
40. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not really. I clean dishes in the dark... which UH... creeps out my parents, and so I activate the lights while cleaning to not freak them out. I just go by memory of the sink's location and the plate's formations.
41. What are you addicted to?
Friendship, love, compliments. B)
42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
I don't know.
44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yes. It was awful.
48. What colour are your eyes?
Really dark. Black, almost. People say my eyes are really big and striking. I like that. B)
50. Do you like your life?
I read the news a lot and observe how humans are treated and living in other parts of the world and so I can state that my life is not the best BUT certainly not the worst BUT I am highly grateful for what I have. I am grateful to have both my parents, and I am grateful that my sis' and I are friends. I am grateful for the peacefulness established. Even if my parents are still highly chaotic and irrational, the way I react to their chaoticness shows I've become immune to insanity from most others.
tl;dr
I just try my best to cherish things.
52. Are you psychic
In ways that I hate and do not benefit me in any way.
54. Do you play any instruments?
I slam my head onto my piano to make background music for my YouTube videos. Does that count?
58. Do you snort when you laugh?
Yes. I am embarrassed by it.
59. Do you believe in magic?
SCIENCE.
60. Are dogs a man’s best friend?
Most humans around this globe don't deserve dogs.
61. You believe in divorce?
If it is s toxic relationship, then yes. I fully support the divorce. Otherwise... I suppose I admire my parents for being able to tolerate each other for this long despite all the fights, hardships, and other things. They've told me of their childhoods. I feel great pity for them and try my best to bring smiles to their faces whenever possible.
62. Can you do the moonwalk?
I don't know.
63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
A lot. I'm a stupid bitch.
64. Is it cold outside today?
It's actually little cold! B) Yay! Tomorrow I'm going to step out for a bit! ^^
65. What was the last thing you ate?
This.
66. Do you wear nail polish?
I should start wearing black nail polish again! >BD
67. Have you ever been kissed?.
By people I don't like. B(
70. Favourite song at the moment?
STILL THIS! www.youtube.com/watch?v=kw1pXS… B)
75. Do you know how to tag three peoples?
No. B(
I tag Jack. >BD [HE DOESN'T HAVE AN ACCOUNT HERE, BUT I'M STILL TAGGING HIM ANYWAYS BECAUSE HE READS THESE AND I'M A JERK. >BD ]
I also tag Spir and Gealach. B)
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I passed my driving test!
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I am so happy!
Though unfortunately also a bit upset, lmao. I went to DPS to get my license but I forgot my birth certificate and social security number. Tomorrow I'll wake up early to go about all that.
and because my mom has trouble driving, I was severely yelled at when we were trying to back up which rattled me. [I hate when others take out their anger/frustrations on me.]
ahhhh, nice things always have to be so bittersweet. B(
BUT AT LEAST
I finally passed! I shall get my official driver's license soon! B)
I would have passed sooner if I had only known I could have asked for another teacher. I just didn't know. I felt so hopeless. My first teacher primarily spoke Spanish. We couldn't communicate properly. She'd just watch Spanish shows on her phone and kept failing me. She'd talk in Spanish to the person in the backseat. When I tried speaking to her, she couldn't hear me or thought I was not all there. It was just an uncomfortable environment.
My next and final teacher was so cool! He actually talked to me. We had conversations. Something I rarely ever have with others due to a language barrier. [Spanish is the bane of my existence in this region.] I shared that I plan to audit the biophysics classes later this year at the nearby college and brush up on my mathematics and other things. He said that I'm analytical and so he provided excellent advice to help me understand how to turn the car properly! As in using numbers. I'M A MATH PERSON. It's why I couldn't understand his original instructions. I have to be spoken to in numbers in order to understand things. That was cool. B)
This explains why I have to have a script written for myself to know what to do, otherwise I 'malfunction' and don't accomplish anything.
[Example: I have to create a formula in order to understand my personal process of editing videos, otherwise they will lack consistency.]
Anyways, GOAL ONE FOR THIS YEAR IS COMPLETED. I CAN DRIVE NOW... whenever my parents are not using the car. I plan to start saving up to hopefully one day get a car of my own! MAYBE BLACK, like Professor Venomous's car! YES.
Second goal: consistently upload videos onto YouTube to become a successful YouTuber. Already established "brand name" and gist of the channel. Slowly making progress.
tl;dr I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING ON ABOUT. HERE. JUST WANTED TO RAMBLE AND SPAM THIS NONSENSE ON ALL MY PAGES.
Though unfortunately also a bit upset, lmao. I went to DPS to get my license but I forgot my birth certificate and social security number. Tomorrow I'll wake up early to go about all that.
and because my mom has trouble driving, I was severely yelled at when we were trying to back up which rattled me. [I hate when others take out their anger/frustrations on me.]
ahhhh, nice things always have to be so bittersweet. B(
BUT AT LEAST
I finally passed! I shall get my official driver's license soon! B)
I would have passed sooner if I had only known I could have asked for another teacher. I just didn't know. I felt so hopeless. My first teacher primarily spoke Spanish. We couldn't communicate properly. She'd just watch Spanish shows on her phone and kept failing me. She'd talk in Spanish to the person in the backseat. When I tried speaking to her, she couldn't hear me or thought I was not all there. It was just an uncomfortable environment.
My next and final teacher was so cool! He actually talked to me. We had conversations. Something I rarely ever have with others due to a language barrier. [Spanish is the bane of my existence in this region.] I shared that I plan to audit the biophysics classes later this year at the nearby college and brush up on my mathematics and other things. He said that I'm analytical and so he provided excellent advice to help me understand how to turn the car properly! As in using numbers. I'M A MATH PERSON. It's why I couldn't understand his original instructions. I have to be spoken to in numbers in order to understand things. That was cool. B)
This explains why I have to have a script written for myself to know what to do, otherwise I 'malfunction' and don't accomplish anything.
[Example: I have to create a formula in order to understand my personal process of editing videos, otherwise they will lack consistency.]
Anyways, GOAL ONE FOR THIS YEAR IS COMPLETED. I CAN DRIVE NOW... whenever my parents are not using the car. I plan to start saving up to hopefully one day get a car of my own! MAYBE BLACK, like Professor Venomous's car! YES.
Second goal: consistently upload videos onto YouTube to become a successful YouTuber. Already established "brand name" and gist of the channel. Slowly making progress.
tl;dr I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING ON ABOUT. HERE. JUST WANTED TO RAMBLE AND SPAM THIS NONSENSE ON ALL MY PAGES.
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